Belly Love: Seeing Beauty in Brokenness

This post may be from August 2013, but the struggle to appreciate and cherish our bellies is a common theme. Are you and your core on good terms, or is there still some relationship work to be done? We’d love to hear from you in the comments!

My son turned 5 this past week, and as I pondered his birth and my belly and all it’s been through, my Facebook timeline kept showing me those photo projects designed to convince women to just accept their bodies “as is” after having babies {which sort of worries me because, while we cannot do much about stretch marks and extra skin, we CAN close separated abs, and in doing so can virtually eliminate lower back pain and incontinence—so maybe we shouldn’t only celebrate our bodies “as is” after pregnancy . . . ? Anyhoo. #endrant}

How do we really feel about our bellies?

Well, I posted in our private member forum—where women know about diastasis and are learning how to heal—that I want to do a a simpler version of belly lovin’ on Fit2B. Now, normally we do not show much skin on this modest, family-friendly fitness site, and {if I am honest} we really do focus on facing what’s fallen apart. So this post REALLY turns this site on its ear, since you will see bare bellies and {just for this precious moment} we aren’t analyzing them: we are simply being grateful and choosing to rejoice in all that is still good about them. This is what I requested from my members, and you can see for yourself what the response was, below:

We send so many hate messages to our tummies, and so does the media. If you dare, I’d like to challenge you to help me send a different message to the world: think of one positive word for your core, then write it on your belly. Take a picture and send it to me. I’d love at least 10 contributions to our “Belly Love” project. And I want ALL the bellies of ALL shapes, sizes, and healing stages. Bring it!

The response was incredible.

Nearly every photo sent in moved me to tears. You see, my heart is to empower women to find their true core so they can be stronger mothers, partners, wives, and contributing members of their communities, and I don’t do that by tearing them or their bodies down. I work really hard to be there for them, to encourage them, to listen to them and support them. Separated muscles can be healed, and—when they finally are—there is a spiritual and emotional core to these members of mine that also starts to reconnect. Truly, it is a humbling and worship-inspiring miracle to behold!

Okay, without further blathering from me, here they are in the order I received them.

“As I am not a photographer I did the best I could and I think it is indeed beautiful. Love this project I am glad I can be a part of such an empowering group. I am not embarrassed anymore of my belly. I am glad you like it that much and I can help such an awesome project!” –Jenny H.

 

“I chose Impressive for the belly word because during my first c-section, the nurse (who had 2 or 3 shifts during my 41 hours of labor) told the doctor, “It doesn’t look like much now, but if you saw her walking the halls, you could tell that her belly is impressive!” That word stuck with me as I looked back on my pregnancy with my first born and with grew with my next 2 pregnancies. With the way my body is shaped and how large my boys grow, there is no where for them to grow except out . It is amazing how much my belly grows to accommodate the baby. Complete strangers are constantly amazed by how big my belly grows during pregnancy. (Although, I am choosing to ignore the rude comments from people who insist that I don’t know how far along I actually am or how many children I am pregnant with) This is the first pregnancy that I am now aware of how to use my core to help draw the baby in closer to my spine which greatly helps ease the lower back pain. Thanks for heading this up! I love the idea.” –Heather W.

 

“I can’t write upside down and backwards so I used sticker letters. Going through the stickers I had, I noticed lots of great words and that led me to a word book of mine with more ideas: love, remembrance, delighted, influential, cherished, awesome, amazing, supportive, jubilant, peaceful, calm, quiet, adventure, happy, contented, generous, grateful, brave, confident, courageous, determined, encouraged, assured, creative, fascinating, hopeful, alive, feisty, appealing, caring, crazy, devoted, sexy, value, treasured, joy…” –Charissa W.

 

“I am such a perfectionist! Everyone knows it. I saw your request and was thinking about the perfect word to write on my belly. When I stumbled on this phrase, it fit. My husband wrote the words on my belly. The moment was special for us both.” –Lori L.

 

“It took me a long time to accept what the picture shows. I’m a work in progress, I know that. It’s a good reminder to myself when I am saddened/upset that my core isn’t where I “wish” it was at. It’s a reminder that it was strong once and it can be strong again. Thanks for all you do Beth!” –Velita H.

 

“My husband wrote this for me, which is a gift in itself since he’s blind and only learned to write because I asked him to! 😀 My word was “Loved.” –Christy M.C.

 

“When you said to choose a positive word, I think I was just automatically thinking of my babies being born and that being the reason why it looks/feels the way it does…..and that even though it’s made it weak (for now anyway!) it isn’t really a totally bad thing.

The verses in the Bible about children being the fruit of the womb and a wife being a fruitful vine and that it was always looked on by God as being a blessing just really stuck out to me. My belly may be stretched and a little broken and not look perfect by “some peoples” standards now, but it has been fruitful to bare me four beautiful children……and to me that makes it awesome! Our 2nd and 3rd babies are 5 years apart and we thought I wouldn’t be able to have anymore due to health reasons but then SURPRISE…we’ve been given not just one, but two more blessings!! The last pregnancy especially was when I noticed the biggest change in my abdominal muscles and was “diagnosed’ with DR and I wish I had known about you sooner to save myself some pain and problems but I’m thankful to have a way to bring healing to my body now and even more grateful that this stomach was able to be fruitful, in spite of everything.” –Tyra W.

 

“I have chosen the word ‘miraculous’ for several reasons: The first is that my husband and I tried to get pregnant for 5+ years before I underwent a laparoscopy (which revealed SEVERE endometriosis and massive scarring). Prior to that, we both went on diets, lost 50-70 pounds, depending on the day, and really tried (at least, in my case) to improve our health so that we would be more likely to conceive. Nothing worked. After this procedure (lets call it what it was: surgery.) we turned reluctantly to a fertility specialist, injectable fertility medication and IUI (Intrauterine insemination). We decided that we could afford ONE round, but after that we would just have to wait and see! Miracle of miracle, that pregnancy test (and the 6 after it..lol) turned pink, and I went in for an ultrasound at 7 weeks..and there were two embryos. TWO! I carried these precious girls to 37 weeks, was induced against my better judgement, and after 14 hours of hard, pitocin-induced labor was strong-armed into a C-section. I hated my belly. Hated it! Even after reminding myself almost hourly that this belly carried these two miracle babies (one of whom is perched on top of my belly..her favorite place to be!) for 9 months, I still felt so weak and useless.

Reenter yoga at around 5 weeks PP. I am slowly getting stronger. I can do things now that I haven’t been able to do for months, and in just a short period of time, I am noticing a dramatic increase in my core strength because of Fit2B. My belly is still there, it supports me supporting my now 9-month old twin girls, and I am slowly learning- for the first time- to RESPECT it. After all, it carried miracles.” –Amanda B.

 “Why i chose astounding as my word… I wanted a word that expressed my sense of wonder and awe at what my belly has done, is doing and will do. It had to be a word that was not too endearing though. While I am in awe at the miracle that is my belly, we are not quite good friends again yet. This made it a bit of a challenge…But yes, I am ASTOUNDED at this belly. At this body even. I’m sure we’ll be on better terms again soon!” –Nicole L.

 

“I saw this story related awhile ago by Azali Mizan, and I do think it gives valuable perspective…… ‘Every time I see tips on how to get rid of stretch marks, I recall reading Dr. Maya Angelou’s experience. She said while traveling in Africa she stayed with a tribe that bathed communally. She said the women began to weep and console her and she did not know why. They thought she was childless because she had no stretch marks. In their society, marks are a badge of honor. They said even if the baby passed away and she was kidnapped into a new village, if she passed and could not speak for herself, the marks would tell her story and she would get the proper rites at burial.'” –Sara K.

 “Hi Beth, Here are my pictures. 🙂 I did one with my baby and one without–feel free to use either or both. I thought it was cool to have her in the picture since she is the reason my belly is the way it is. 🙂 She was safe when she was inside of it and she is safe now when she’s cuddled against it. 🙂 “–Catie W.

 

“i picked healing because while my belly has a way to go, in my opinion, i am so encouraged by the progress and healing this far. I started with an 8+ DR and am down to about a 2 now & my core is so much stronger, i can see the healing happening.” –Jennifer M.

 

This one from Sarah B. didn’t come with a story, but I love her word: Grace.

My favorite?

It’s the one that says “loved,” written in laboriously scripted letters by the hand of a blind husband who learned to write just for his wife. How sweet is that? It makes me blubber each time I see it!

Now it’s my turn.

I chose healed, and I asked my 7 year-old daughter to write it. At first she tried to spell it “held.” In permanent marker. I corrected her as I looked down at the top her head and ran my fingers through her hair—so unlike how it was all bald when she first slid out between my legs almost 8 years ago. “No, it needs an ‘A’ before the ‘L’ and then ‘E–D.’ ” But of course, my belly DID hold her and her brother. So I love the typo on my tummy. 

Care to share? 

Which one is your favorite? What word would you write on your belly?